My husband is an awesome man with a really keen insight, especially in to me! (There are days when I just hate that!!) :O) Yesterday on our ritual Sunday walk in the park he made the observation that I always seem to be longing for something.... That I don't seem happy. I was taken aback at first. How could he see that? I do such a great job of hiding those feelings....don't I? I guess not.
Because I never want to lie to this man, I had to find the courage to be totally honest. I had to admit that the more weight I gain, the less I like myself. The less I like myself, the more I look to "stuff" to fill me up. A new car.....a new pool......a new dress......STUFF. And not just any stuff. If I'm looking at a new car, I want to be looking at a BMW or Lexus rather than a Kia or Hundai. It doesn't necessarily make sense to any one else but me, but to me it does. It says I may be fat and have failed in that part of my life, but look....I'm doing so well in other parts. It doesn't make it real, but somehow it's been rationalized in my brain to seem normal. I think I've been doing it so long, that I no longer realized I was actually doing it. I didn't even know I was trying to overcompensate all of the time. But the minute Bruce made the observation....POW....it all came in to focus and suddenly I was present with my motives. I felt sick to my stomach.
I stopped and looked at my life. I have an amazing husband that loves me unconditionally. Truly, unconditionally. We have a beautiful, healthy baby boy. We have jobs. We built and live in a beautiful home. We are healthy. We have family and friends who love and support us. We have SO much. I am so grateful for all these blessings in my life. I lost sight of that when I got blinded by the negative feelings from the fat. I let it hurt my actual life. I gave it more power than I ever should have.
I'm taking that power back. One day at a time. One work out at a time. One better choice at a time. I'm waking up. It's scary, because it means saying all of these scary things out loud. But hiding it gave it power over me. I can't allow that to continue. This is my life.
Monday, July 20, 2009
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THE WEIGHT LOSS PLAN
Here is the plan if you would like to follow along:
1. figure out how many calories a day you should be consuming
in order to lose weight. (7 calories x your current weight)
This is the net amount per day you should be eating.
Net amount = calories eaten minus calories burned
through excercise.
Example: 2200 calories eaten minus 450 calories burned on
treadmill= 1750 net calories.
2. Try to eliminate or drastically reduce the "white foods" you
eat. White bread, rice, pasta, flour, sugar or anything made
with these ingrediants.
3. Work out 1 hour a day, 7 days a week. No excuses.
(This does NOT have to be done all at one time.)
4. Keep Track of your calorie intake and your exercise and
weigh in only once a week.
That's it. It's just that simple and just that hard all at the same time!! Good luck to us all.
Also- if you would like a template of the Excel spreadsheet calorie and food log that I use, Just send me an email at WeighLessLiveMore@yahoo.com and I will be happy to send that to you.
1. figure out how many calories a day you should be consuming
in order to lose weight. (7 calories x your current weight)
This is the net amount per day you should be eating.
Net amount = calories eaten minus calories burned
through excercise.
Example: 2200 calories eaten minus 450 calories burned on
treadmill= 1750 net calories.
2. Try to eliminate or drastically reduce the "white foods" you
eat. White bread, rice, pasta, flour, sugar or anything made
with these ingrediants.
3. Work out 1 hour a day, 7 days a week. No excuses.
(This does NOT have to be done all at one time.)
4. Keep Track of your calorie intake and your exercise and
weigh in only once a week.
That's it. It's just that simple and just that hard all at the same time!! Good luck to us all.
Also- if you would like a template of the Excel spreadsheet calorie and food log that I use, Just send me an email at WeighLessLiveMore@yahoo.com and I will be happy to send that to you.
Coupon Kitchen
A Tasty treat made with this weeks coupon finds:
This week I had a dollar off of Duncan Hines Cake Mix. Last week I had a dollar off of Cool Whip. I bought both.
The cake was on sales for 1.66, so I paid .66
The Cool Whip was on sale for 1.25, so I paid .25
I purchased the Duncan Hines Spice cake mix (It had fewer calories) and instead of making a cake, I made cupcakes. The box said it made 12 servings (based on the cake) at 270 calories per serving, so I did the math. 270 x the 12 servings per box = 3240 for the whole cake. I made 24 cupcakes. 3240 /24= 135 calories per cupcake.
When we're ready to have one I "ice" the top with the cool whip for a cool 10 extra calories. I get a great tasting cupcake treat for only 145 calories! I think kids would love these and not really miss the heavier icing version. :O)
This week I had a dollar off of Duncan Hines Cake Mix. Last week I had a dollar off of Cool Whip. I bought both.
The cake was on sales for 1.66, so I paid .66
The Cool Whip was on sale for 1.25, so I paid .25
I purchased the Duncan Hines Spice cake mix (It had fewer calories) and instead of making a cake, I made cupcakes. The box said it made 12 servings (based on the cake) at 270 calories per serving, so I did the math. 270 x the 12 servings per box = 3240 for the whole cake. I made 24 cupcakes. 3240 /24= 135 calories per cupcake.
When we're ready to have one I "ice" the top with the cool whip for a cool 10 extra calories. I get a great tasting cupcake treat for only 145 calories! I think kids would love these and not really miss the heavier icing version. :O)
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2 comments:
You have a GREAT husband...KUDOS to Bruce for pointing out the obvious and being so supportive! I love him and I've never even met him!!!!
Thanks girly!! He is a keeper. Most of the time. ;O) (WINK)
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